might be something...

Might be something going on...might be..

D-Day.Letting Go.I Need Help.

Its judgement day, folks! and i am........................SO NOT READY! hahaha...structures finals is the day after 2morrow..and i still feel like it's months away. which shows why i'm still blogging instead of studying, still watching movies instead of reading my notes and still crapping when i should be talking quantum physics! haih...PLEH~!

Btw, i'm back in melaka now. where it's not so foreign, but i miss home pulak! hmm...fickle! anyways, being home and all gave me some time to think about stuff. you know, life. my life...which is a soap opera if you ask me.(seriously, it's sooo true, it scares even me sometimes). well, when i started to sort out things, i found out that i am scared of a lot of things. I'm scared of losing my mum and dad, of losing my friends, and of losing the stability(sort of) that i have in life right now. i mean, what if..just what if everything is gone, what then? but then, i stop and look at the now, and not the "what could be's". and i've decided that living in the now is the best thing ever!!! no one knows what could happen in the future and some of us dread the thought of it, but the thing is, if we get too stressed about what will happen, we lose track of what is happening, and that would be a shame!

I have decided to take things as they come and to not be afraid of opportunities and of new horizons. i think it's about time! i need a change! hahahah...look out world here i come! yeehaaaa(and then the music stops and i fall flat on my butt) but nevermind, dusting myself off, and trying again! and again, and again, and again...yay!

I'm home...

I'm back home in sp..finally! been away for almost 4 months..the longest i've ever been away.

when i woke up the first morning, evrything seemed so foreign. the houses outside, my mom's gardening, my mango tree outside (which is big ass now!!). hmm..so different, so not melaka.

i miss linda, i miss dinie, i miss cruella! i miss half hearted jugak! but i want to be home for a while, i want to smell like home again. haih...i want to teleport!

Nevermind Me...

What is the game we're playing?
should I stick around for more?
Snap your fingers I'll coming running
Leave again when you're bored
with me
I'll make it easy

Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
My God I feel so small
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just let myself out.

This facade that I'm stuck with
has got me wondering
Just tell me how you want me
and I'll be naked stumbling
just to get a reaction, any signs of love

Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
My God I feel so small
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just let myself out.

Bottle up your smile
Pour it in a cup
I'll be on my way
once I've sobered up

I need a cuppa Joe!!

In class.Sleepy.Cannot open my eyes.Not enough sleep.Boring people talking in front.Half hearted love didn't say good morning.Still can't open my eyes.Need a cuppa joe.OH, forgot, no money.cannot do this.ZzZzzzz

Facade

French pulak after this...NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! i cannot do this esta bien! como amigo arrribaaa arribbaa!!

Get us a bloody pillow...pls?