Assumptions and Fickle-mindedness

OOKAAY...back in sp already and i can't believe the amount of boredom i'm in and i can't believe i'm longing for melaka! my god, i want to be in melaka!!! huhu..i need to teleport again!
but sp has its perks lah, firstly, no need to think about money sangat, only when its time to buy ciggies, and i dun smoke that much in sp..mcm control sket! woot! i need linda and kak d! huhuu

k..updates on the new man, he's soooo sweet! my god, mcm too good to be true, but then again, i like it, been a while since i've heard sweet nothings from a man, gives me tingles up and down my spine! hehe...o0o0..cud it be love? maybe, but one shall not assume. because if u assume, you make an ASS out of U and ME! haha...hope it goes well, oh and he's cute!! wtf? hehe..mcm nak "in your face" to some ppl la kan, but then, let it be...let's take the higher road shall we?

all in all, i'm smiling more now, although he's far away, but i've made it work before, i can do it again! hah! and i still nak balik melaka...rasa mcm sumthing missing la, i cannot do this! hish, fickle! at home nak balik melaka, in melaka nak go home pulak! cannot put them side by side ar? haih...

Holidays!! Woot!

Final exams are over and i can finally do fun and unadulterated (oops) stuff with guilt-free satisfaction. Haahhah...structures was fine, psychology was okay and french was not bad! hmm...all in all, i think might do well this term, wish me luck!! n btw, when are we gonna learn that procrastination is NOT GOOD?!? hmm..i still can't get passed the "nevermind there's always 2mrw" phase and i'm starting to get worried..wht if i suddenly start to procrastinate my bath time, or breathing. although i wish i could procrastinate my meals. gotta stop gotta stop gotta stop!

hmm..i'm off to sp in a few days, and linda will be in egypt! hah...bosan! i need my ms.darcy. how to get over boring days and nights without her voice screeching in my ear?? on the plus side, i'm sure i'm gonna get cool stuff from egypt! hehe...have fun girl! and bring ventolin! luv ya!

kak d's finals are not over yet, she still has two more heavy papers to finish, i hope my parents come after she's done..so i can teman her. hehe...good luck kak d! luv ya bitch!

cruella's fatter than ever and she's gonna go home with linda this holidays...omg, it just crossed my mind that when she's gone to egypt, her mom has to take care of cruella! oh no...good luck, aunty! huhuhu..best wishes and i'm not liable for any damage that cruella causes.

to conclude (cheewaahh), i hope i get good results, i hope i dun miss melaka too much and happy holidays folks! till next term, au revoir...

might be something...

Might be something going on...might be..

D-Day.Letting Go.I Need Help.

Its judgement day, folks! and i am........................SO NOT READY! hahaha...structures finals is the day after 2morrow..and i still feel like it's months away. which shows why i'm still blogging instead of studying, still watching movies instead of reading my notes and still crapping when i should be talking quantum physics! haih...PLEH~!

Btw, i'm back in melaka now. where it's not so foreign, but i miss home pulak! hmm...fickle! anyways, being home and all gave me some time to think about stuff. you know, life. my life...which is a soap opera if you ask me.(seriously, it's sooo true, it scares even me sometimes). well, when i started to sort out things, i found out that i am scared of a lot of things. I'm scared of losing my mum and dad, of losing my friends, and of losing the stability(sort of) that i have in life right now. i mean, what if..just what if everything is gone, what then? but then, i stop and look at the now, and not the "what could be's". and i've decided that living in the now is the best thing ever!!! no one knows what could happen in the future and some of us dread the thought of it, but the thing is, if we get too stressed about what will happen, we lose track of what is happening, and that would be a shame!

I have decided to take things as they come and to not be afraid of opportunities and of new horizons. i think it's about time! i need a change! hahahah...look out world here i come! yeehaaaa(and then the music stops and i fall flat on my butt) but nevermind, dusting myself off, and trying again! and again, and again, and again...yay!

I'm home...

I'm back home in sp..finally! been away for almost 4 months..the longest i've ever been away.

when i woke up the first morning, evrything seemed so foreign. the houses outside, my mom's gardening, my mango tree outside (which is big ass now!!). hmm..so different, so not melaka.

i miss linda, i miss dinie, i miss cruella! i miss half hearted jugak! but i want to be home for a while, i want to smell like home again. haih...i want to teleport!

Nevermind Me...

What is the game we're playing?
should I stick around for more?
Snap your fingers I'll coming running
Leave again when you're bored
with me
I'll make it easy

Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
My God I feel so small
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just let myself out.

This facade that I'm stuck with
has got me wondering
Just tell me how you want me
and I'll be naked stumbling
just to get a reaction, any signs of love

Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
My God I feel so small
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just let myself out.

Bottle up your smile
Pour it in a cup
I'll be on my way
once I've sobered up

I need a cuppa Joe!!

In class.Sleepy.Cannot open my eyes.Not enough sleep.Boring people talking in front.Half hearted love didn't say good morning.Still can't open my eyes.Need a cuppa joe.OH, forgot, no money.cannot do this.ZzZzzzz

Facade

French pulak after this...NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! i cannot do this esta bien! como amigo arrribaaa arribbaa!!

Get us a bloody pillow...pls?